What and Why

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There are two things; or perhaps two questions, about evaluating the things we do.
First comes the question as to what it is we are doing; second why we are doing it.

On most things in life these two questions are easily answered. We know what we are doing, and chances are we even know why we are doing them. We may or may not like that fact that we have to do them, yet at the end of the day it is all pretty clear.

But then there are for most of us a couple of things in life that can give us a nebulous feeling of it not being right. A sense of spending time and energy on something that doesn’t add up to anything much ~ and here we are doing it anyway.
When we ask ourselves what exactly it is we are doing that leaves us unfulfilled in this manner, we may not even know or understand. In other words, while we are feeling that something isn’t right, we cannot answer the question what it is that makes us feel this way.
We just know that we do…

When we don’t understand what it is, we have little opportunity to actually fathom why we are doing it in the first place.

More often than not, these things are rooted in our earliest childhood. The time when we were still operating purely on a subconscious level and were taking everything we were told or shown as truth. Or at least as valuable information that would help us throughout life to not only survive, but to also ‘belong’, to be productive, and yes, fulfilled.

These things may well have been very useful when we were toddlers, the habits and commitments we have adopted in those early years in life may no longer be meaningful to us once we are adults. And when we grow up and are still giving those very things time and energy, by the time we are adults, this may lead to a sense of being unfulfilled.
As these habits and commitments are safely stored in our subconscious, we may ~ once we are logical thinking grown-ups ~ not understand exactly what these habits and commitments entail…

And therefore we likely have no clue as to what it is we are doing. Although the ‘why’ can become more clear as we understand the mechanics of how these early-childhood-ideas get lodged in our (subconscious) minds; as long as we don’t know what we are doing to keep them going, we will have a hard time changing  our ways…
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